today.

today i am attractive. i know.

I need a shower.
I cleaned my room.
I did four loads of laundry.
3 of which did not dry all the way.
I packed a suitcase full of junk to take home.
I thought about my future.
I skyped with Alycia.
I spent way too much time writing letters.
I sent 3 packages and a lot of letters.
I spent too much money on mail.
I squashed a lot of bugs on my desk.
I slept through my english class.
I listened to Christmas Music.
I thought about getting a job for next semester.
I skipped devotional.
I was basically on time to soccer.
I got Peanut Butter Cup Ice Cream after dinner.

It was a semi productive day.
I could do more.
Tomorrow I will do more.

Seattle. You. Are. Missed.

Today I missed Seattle.

don't worry it's just caramel apple cider

I sit near the front door and watch as people and cars pass by. When it's dark outside it almost looks like Wa. The snowflake decorations cover the windows, and the reflections of the car lights make it seem like Christmas.

I like it.

I like the Christmas decorations in the store. I like the air conditioning up so high that I have to wear a jacket. I like the way it smells fresh. I like the colors. I like the comfy cushiony bench I sit on. I like the different people that come in and out. I like the dimmed lights and I like the the Christmas music playing throughout the whole store.

Today an elderly could came in, they ordered together and then the man waited while his wife went outside and sat at a table. While he was waiting he was listening to the Christmas songs played on the radio. He looked through the window out at his wife and started dancing back an forth for her. She started giggling and you could tell that he loved making her smile... They were so cute.

Hawaii TIME is passing by quickly

Blackout Crew.

Saturday.

10/09/10

This cool crew went to Waimea.

It was so much fun.

I didn't take any pictures,

but I'll make sure to next time.

Their was a large rock we all jumped off of.

Alexis and I hung out at the top for quite a long time,

but

eventually we both did it :)

Unfortunately while we were all having a rockin' time,

the backpack with all of our electronics got pushed around by a wave.

The FOUR of us did not have working cell phones the rest of the day.

Thus we called ourselves the blackout crew.

Lucky Alexis got his phone and camera working over the net couple days

and I'm in the process of getting a new one ordered in.

Engaged?

Not for real...

Crazy Cross EYES :)

Alexis is such a cool kid.

He's a great guy and I'm so glad we're friends!

He convinced me to join Latino club,

the greatest club.

FOODLAND: almost a daily trip.

Awesome reading glasses.

Jaime. Alexis. Me. Eevanna.

Acai Smoothies.

What a terrible discovery.

I'm always craving these.

They're so yummy,

and who can say no when they're semi healthy.

My bank account is getting smaller by the day :/

all we need, is a little bit of [MOMENTUM]

this song has been on repeat;

in my head.

on my ipod.

on my computer.

when i'm running.

when i should be sleeping.

while i'm doing homework.

when i find a new song i like

i always listen to it

over and over and over and over and over.

and i don't get sick of it.

mostly.

"Momentum"

You are the dark ocean bottom
And I am the fast sinking anchor
Should I fall for you?
should i fall for you?
You are the scar on my tissue
That I show all of my new friends
Should I show you me?
should i show you me?

All we need is a little bit of momentum
Breakdown these walls that we've built around ourselves
All we need is a little bit of inertia
Breakdown and tell
breakdown and tell

That you are the rain on the fire
Deep in the trees when no one was looking
Should I speak of this?
should i speak of this?
You are a mirage in the distance
That defies the heat of the desert
Should I believe in you?
should i believe in you?

all we need is a little bit of momentum
Break down these walls that we've built around ourselves
all we need is a little bit of inertia
break down and tell
break down and tell

These rules are made to break and these walls are built to fall
These rules are made to break us

These rules are made to break and these walls are built to fall
These rules are made to break us all

all we need is a little bit of momentum
Break down these walls that we've built around ourselves
all we need is a little bit of inertia
break down and tell
break down and tell

that you are

break down and tell break down and tell [x2]

that you are

this song seems to have an emo vibe.

i'm not emo.

i'm not really ever sad.

for some reason i just love this song.

i like it today,

and yesterday,

and hopefully tomorrow.

the beat is cool.

it makes me motivated.

i've been listening to the Hush Sound, a lot.

i like them.

when i listen to a song

over and over,

i start to associate that song,

with whatever time i was at in my life

when i was listening to it

over and over.

this song will remind me of hawaii.

running on Kam Hwy.

pushing myself,

to go a little further each day.

and the many

new experiences.

Polynesian Partayyy :)

Man, the Tongan Club can throw one good dance party :)

I had a lot of fun.

My favorite part just may have been the FOOD.

Yes, I said it.

but

They had REAL strawberries, grapes, bananas and pineapple.

I have missed fruit.

My beautiful roommate Lauren, in the center wearing white and her friends Stacy and Ellen.

Kody is next to me and Foni is front and center.

Mary is the little one to the right of me, then the girl from RANCHO CUCAMONGA,

100% Mexican Jessica (even though she doesn't look it)

and some more people I don't know.

HAWAII.

Can you believe I've lived in Hawaii for almost a whole month.

I can't.

Time flies by way too fast when your looking back.

Each day here just rushes by.

I wish I used my time a little more wisely.

I wish I was more consistent with taking pictures and updating my blog.

But No looking back.

Only moving forward.

Goodbye to my Beautiful home.

Lets see how much you change.

I feel so blessed to have grown up in with such a great family.

Hawaii couldn't get anymore BEAUTIFUL.

Snapped a couple shots while driving around with my mom.

Polynesian Cultural Center.

The Canoe from Fiji.

My second visit toFour tables (or three tables)

I went with Eevanna and Rachel.

The first time I went with my old roommate; Lauren and Kelsey and Lauren.

This beach is wonderful.

It's so clean and the sand is Amazing!

I live in Paradise.

After a few sessions of Conference we decided a beach run was needed.

The Gang: Alexis, Brock, Michael, Nephi

Rachel, Eevanna and I.

After seeing hundreds of jellyfish along the beach,

I convinced Eevanna and Rachel that it would still be a good idea to go swimming,

because we'd only get stung if we were meant to be stung.

I got stung. First time. Wahoo :)

When I first got here I was in Hale 3.

Lauren Franklyn, from Anaheim, and I shared a single room,

with lots of Ants,

and very little room.

A couple days I got switched into Hale 2.

I am so blessed.

I feel terrible for leaving Lauren F

in that ant infested room.

BUT

My new room is:

Huge.

Almost ant free.

And I have an awesome new roommate also named Lauren, from New Zealand.

tIMe GoEs bY FaSt.

The Beginning of

MY Journey into Adulthood:

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I've learned a lot.

But what good is learning if;

you don't do anything with the knowledge you've gained.

I've learned a lot about myself.

My organizational skill.

What motivates me.

My study habits.

My social skills.

I've learned a lot about people.

I've learned a lot about relationships.

I've learned that it is hard for me to trust people.

I'm ready to make some changes in my life.

Alycia Ikegami

Real Roomie

My wonderful Japanese roommate. When we all introduced ourselves in church she pretended to only know Japanese. It was quite funny. I will miss her. She made us delicious curry and nobodies rice can compare to hers. I'm glad we were roommates she's so relaxed and kind. We got to know each other so much better.

Kara Ann Forsey

Fake Roommate #1

I am so glad that we stayed in touch all these years. We were able to connect through our late night talks about... everything. I will miss being able to relate about our different hardships in life. Spoon it up probably made lots of money off of us this summer, but it was worth it. Dynamite, Solo, Heartbreaker, these songs will forever remind me of our perfect summer together. I'm looking forward to growing old together as great friends. I predict that she will fall madly in love with a great honest man, she deserves someone wonderful.

Bryan and Ryan. I thought they were 17 year old brothers thefirst week that I knew them. They love to joke around and have a good time. They're great at cooking. They're very friendly. They're both very righteous examples. I'm sure that they were both great missionaries. I'm glad we all got to be such great friends. I bet, as much as they choose to deny it, they will both fall in love and get married very soon. They're tons of fun to be around, I'll miss them.

Ryan Faber

This boy and I are very similar. We both are pretty shy about our personal lives. Our theories on life have many similarities as well. The popsicle theory made a lot of sense to me. You need to taste the flavors before you decide which one you like best-->Dating.

Bryan Ray

This kid is way cooler than he knows. He seems all tough and hardcore, but as you get to know him better you realize he's quite a sensitive guy. I loved listening to him talk about life. His marriage theories were also very interesting (any righteous man and woman can have a happy marriage). He taught me about Timmy and how to wrestle. He also read his russian BOM to me at night. I'll miss "tucking him in at night".

Yuki Dorff

Fake roommate #2

This girl made me laugh harder than anyone else. She was so innocent and so incredibly honest. She was very blunt without realizing it, but it didn't come off as rude from her. She's just too cute to make anything sound mean. I couldn't take anything she said seriously. She was the easiest person to scare, she'd jump at anything. I hope to stay in touch with her!

Mallory, Kellee, Julius, John, Caleb, Brittany, Corinne, Donovan, Christina, Jacob, Megan, Alex, Stephen, Tyler, Jake, the many Andrews, the creepy RM who wants to become a physical therapist and called me beautiful one too many times, Michael Davis the very charming boy who came over and did the dishes ... The list of people and memories could go on, but that sums up a good portion of my summer.

Just for Laughs:

Don't judge me...

ColLeGE!?!!

(I got a computer?!)

WoOoWw!

Time has just flown by. I can not believe that I'm heading off to my first term of college in supposedly six hours, but I'm sure it will be more than that. Road trips never seem to go as planned. We always end up taking too long.

It has definitely been a roller coaster ride making it to this point.

My family.

Understanding and working through differences.

Coming to terms with myself.

Grades.

Seminary.

Prom.

Yearbook.

Friends.

I'll miss my room. It will never be the same.

I'll miss my house, it will no longer be the main place I live.

I will miss being a kid. I felt like I've let it all pass me by.

I'll miss Mei Ling.

I'll miss Aaron.

I'll miss Seth.

I hope my parents begin to REDISCOVER love again.

I'll miss movie nights.

I'll miss ice cream nights.

I'll miss Tag.

I'll miss Miracle.

I'll miss going on long walks.

I'll miss going on long runs.

I'll miss the pipeline.

I'll miss Candace.

I'll miss my yoga ball.

I'll miss the tire swing.

I'll miss english hill.

I'll miss my family.

I'll miss watching them grow up.

I'll miss it here.

I'll miss my summers.

I'll miss Cottage Lake.

I'll miss EFY.

I'll miss fhe's in the front yard.

I'll miss being able to talk to my mommy.

I'll miss knowing everyone in the Ward.

I'll miss the Ward.

Why must we grow up?

I've waited so long for this,

but now I feel that I've missed out.

I feel that I've grown up too fast.

I've taken life for granted.

I haven't been grateful for all that I've been given.

I need to work harder to notice and appreciate those around me.

Lets hope all goes well.

Inspirations. Disordered.

What inspires someone to change?

Does it take an event,

a tragic loss,

an inspiring story,

a life defining moment,

or an overly positive outlook?

What does it take to change?

What is change?

Can any person ever truly change in their life time?

A person can decide to quit smoking, but does that mean that the desires will never arise again?

and if those desires do come back, is the change in rejecting or ignoring them..............?

I have so many attributes, habits and views that I would like to change for myself.

I have come to realize that change, if possible is not an easy task.

Their are many inner struggles that each individual battles, without succumbing to the painful desires and emotions that they may evoke. This alone could be a reason of celebration.

I want more from life.

Action: Gandhi Quote

Whatever you do may seem insignificant to you, but it is most important that you do it.

Achievements: Gandhi Quote

You must be the change you wish to see in the world.

I saw the movie, "Remember Me" tonight. It has left me feeling inspired to make a change, make a difference in this world that we live in.

Attitude!

Attitude is Everything.

Quote from Rocky Balboa 2006:
"I'd hold you up to say to your mother, "this kid's gonna be the best kid in the world. This kid's gonna be somebody better than anybody I ever knew." And you grew up good and wonderful. It was great just watching you, every day was like a privilige. Then the time come for you to be your own man and take on the world, and you did. But somewhere along the line, you changed. You stopped being you. You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you're no good. And when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow. Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! Now if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that! I'm always gonna love you no matter what. No matter what happens. You're my son and you're my blood. You're the best thing in my life. But until you start believing in yourself, ya ain't gonna have a life. Don't forget to visit your mother."

Songs to Live By...

If Today Was Your Last Day lyrics
Songwriters: Kroeger, Chad;

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

Artist: Tim McGraw
Album: Live Like You Were Dying
Song: Live Like You Were Dying

Lyrics:

He said I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
when a moment came that stopped me on a dime
and I spent most of the next days
looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
and talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
that this might really be the real end
how's it hit you when you get that kinda news
man what'd you do

and he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying and he said someday I hope you get the chance to live like you were dying.

He said I was finally the husband
that most the time I wasn't
and I became a friend a friend would like to have
and all the sudden going fishin
wasn't such an imposition
and I went three times that year I lost my dad
well I finally read the good book
and I took a good long hard look
at what I'd do if I could do it all again

and then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
what'd you do with it what did you do with it
what did I do with it
what would I do with it'

Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu
and then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I watched an eagle as it was flying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying

Define.

"Thoughts are the tools with which we shape our character, just as truly as a great sculptor with chisel and mallet chips and chips on the rough marble until it's shaped into a splendid and perfect work of art. Just so EVERY THOUGHT IS SHAPING OUR CHARACTER and, consequently, shaping our DESTINY and our LIVES. Therefore the result is, in all our thoughts, the creation of our character." -George Q. Morris, The Importance of Habits, BYU 1953